Dear Tenzin Sungrab,
Whatever you experienced that pull you down, I am happy to hear that you are back up on your feet again. Your faith in DS will sure stablise your situation.
At times I also feel like a deflated balloon, but whenever I think of Dorje Shugden, I know I cannot let him down as our dear protector has been so kind and compassionate to me.
Much prayers..... to you and your mother.